Last week truly felt amazingly full, light and beautiful.
I do not doubt my decision to study Reiki and re-start my healer training had something to do with it.
I also feel that the deep connection, priority and respect I have given to my creativity is a large part of it.
I used to hear people say that they couldn’t breathe if they didn’t have their creative outlets-it was that important to them. I used to smile and think, “it would be amazing to have that kind of connection to your creativity.” For me, I loved creativity but always put it off thinking “someday” I will have time for it. “Someday” the universe will line up just right and give me lots of free time to work on my creativity but until then I was fine.
I didn’t realize how wrong I was.
It’s like all of a sudden getting a good pair of shoes and realizing how much pain your feet had been in all this time.
Once I connected with my creativity, truly connected to it, it was like I realized how sad part of me had been all this time. While my life was beautiful and blessed and happy there was a part of me hidden from the world, unexpressed, unseen. And this part wasn’t a small part, it was the core of not only who I was but how I viewed the world, reacted to it and planned. Not honoring that part of myself left me disconnected and oftentimes feeling like my life was happening to me.
So what was the change?
Me.
I make time, each day, for my creativity. I prioritize just like any other task that I would say has-to get done.
There is no option.
In the past, I would set aside time and say, “Ok from 1-2pm that is my time and I am going to create.” And it never failed that a phone call would come in or something would change and some outside influence “took away” my opportunity to create.
I would get frustrated, “no one understands how important this is to me!”
Of course they didn’t.No one valued the time I set-aside for creativity because I didn’t value it.
Instead of saying, “sorry can’t meet you at 1 but I could meet you at 2:30?” I would sigh, look longingly at my pretty notebook, close the door to my office and sulk off.
It was all very dramatic.
Once I made it a priority, once I set aside time and basically said, “this is it folks, this is how I roll.” The interruptions stopped. Those around me got it, they could see just how important this was to me so they respected it.
When we say we have no time, or things just don’t work like that for me, we are really saying that we don’t value the things we say we do.
If our days are filled with nothing but things that make us unhappy, unfulfilled and sad then we aren’t on path. We aren’t living our truth.
We aren’t living period.
What do you want to do?
What do you want to see?
What do you want your days to be like?
Make 5 minutes for it today. No ifs, ands or buts.
Make your life begin!
Until next time….
Michele aka The Dreaming Dilettante
Hi. Yup. I’m realising I might be about to take a very different path to the one I thought I was going to be taking. I think I’ve been in denial about it for a long time, since childhood, because it didn’t feel responsible and worthy enough. Decided I’m too tired to keep fighting it 🙂
Alison I can relate! I too fought a path I just knew was the right one. It is exhausting fighting who you are. So wonderful to hear you are taking a new road 🙂