I’m Struggling

a10mI’m struggling.

This week has been a tough one. Probably one of the toughest in a very, very long time.
I suppose I should be grateful for that.
Usually I am able to look on the bright side of things, deal with whatever “stuff” comes up emotionally and push on.
This week has been different.
I feel I am walking around in someone else’s skin.
The feeling that are whirling around me are vaguely familiar as if they are memories of my past that I have decided to pay me another visit.
I barely remember the girl that experienced them the first time.
And now, I just want it to be over.

It all started with my mother’s knee surgery taking a turn when she had a bad reaction to the medication. I made the decision to stay with her over night which caused all sorts of emotional crapola by being away from my kids, and my baby for the first time.
From there it turned into a car accident that has left me without my car, the one I waited and wanted for so long. I am extremely grateful that no one was hurt, my little boy sleeping through the whole ordeal and my little girl brave as can be. Hubby and I are the only ones showing any signs of the accident and thankfully they are just bruises.

Bruises heal. Cars can be fixed. Things don’t matter.

I know all this.

Yet I can’t help but feel sorry for myself.
Sorry for all of us because we really don’t need any more expenses.
Questioning if this all some sign from the Universe that I don’t get to have everything I am working for.
I try not to wallow.
I H A T E wallowing.
I take notice of the little, quiet spark inside.
The voice whispering to me that this too has a purpose. A greater meaning. A way to help me down this new path.

I was poised to start work on my healing artwork this week. Excited to start planning a weekly routine for my creative work. Then, this.

I heard that voice again yesterday telling me that I needed to paint.
Not to share my healing artwork but to heal from it.
To heal myself.
The whole having to have walked the walk thing.

I also felt the need to write this post. You see I don’t normally share this opening about personal situations. Kinda an old habit of privacy and all that.
Worried what others might think about it or if they would be upset that I shared too much, however I realized I have spent far too much time worrying about whether or not my actions are acceptable to others. This is my journey. My life. No one is going to live it for me, lessen my burden or solve my concerns.

It is my journey to walk and share and stumble with and make a mess of and put back together.
So I take ownership of that.
And I share it here, with you in case, like me, you are dealing with some crap.
Maybe you feel alone and as if no one really gets what you are going through.
No one cares.
Maybe you tried to share with a friend only to be yes’d to death while she texted someone else.

Just know you aren’t alone. There is a collective of people just like you experiencing life just as you are and feeling the same way.
And know that when you heal yourself, when you work through the muck and learn from it and grow from it that you add to that collective of people a ray of positivity. A light for them all to look at and hope for.
When you heal yourself you heal the collective as well.

This morning I show up for my “stuff” good and bad.
I work through it.
Paint through it.
Write through it.
Share it.
Heal it.

Until next time…
-Michele Aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Exciting Adventures!

So it has been a whirlwind few months.
I must say that I have found myself struggling, out of sorts and just not feeling myself.
Today, I decided to jump in and get back to some creativity and business building-two things that always lift my spirits and renew my soul and energy.

Plus it is distracting me from little boy who is taking his time to arrive :)

So today, I am very excited to announce a new venture!Large_Silver_Vintage (2)
As you know I am a Stampin’ Up! Ind. Demonstrator have been having the most fun with it! Making videos, creating projects and sharing all of this with you!

I recently learned about a fun company that makes floating lockets and with my love of jewelry and especially personalized jewelry it seemed like such a great fit!
I love having the ability to easily customize amazing gifts or a locket for any occasion (or mood!)

South Hill Designs is a fairly new company but I just know you will love their product lines. Not to mention how easily they coordinate with Stampin’ Up! and the fun cards or boxes you can make for truly a one of a kind gift!

So while I wait for baby (and my Starter Kit) to arrive I will be having some fun planning, learning and anticipating both of these exciting new adventures! You can visit my online store right here. (And the best part? Whether you are in Canada, USA or UK you can shop with me and Join My Team!)

And, as a thank you to all my readers and newsletter subscribers I wanted to share with you a special! If you enroll with the $199 kit between now and the end of May you will receive a FREE Coin & Screen Kit valued at $141!!

I would be so honored to have you as a part of my team and begin this amazing journey with me. Joining is simple just click here and your kit will be on it’s way to you! The best part is you will have immediate access to your back office so you literally can get started TODAY! (I did :)

As always I am so happy that I get to share creativity, excitement and FUN here with all of you! Thank you so much for being a part of my crazy journey!

Until Next Time…

Michele, aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Hibernation Time

tea4The past few weeks have been, well exhausting.

I find myself, in addition to having pretty much no energy, just wanting to hide away in my room in quiet solitude.
I suppose when you are 9 months pregnant it’s not that uncommon.
I am at my core an introvert although I am sure that would surprise some people who know me. While I am friendly, if given the option of going to a party or staying home crafting or watching a movie with my family I will almost every time choose the later.

Solitude does not scare me and in fact I need it on a regular basis. Time alone, just to pursue my own thoughts, speed and interests.

With our little boy on his way I find myself needing more and more rest and really just wanting to hide out watching craft videos and catching up on “Person of Interest” (our newly found favorite show). I have managed to record 2 1/2 podcasts that haven’t made it out and I do apologize to my subscribers. With any luck I will get back on track with that soon but I am trying to be gentle and remind myself that the beauty of what I do is that it not only supports my financial needs but my personal, spiritual and physical needs as well.

Afterall, that is the goal of life isn’t it?
To create and build a life that supports you, your needs and the needs of those you love?

So for now I am embracing the quiet when I can find it and not pushing myself.
I do little things here and there but ask for help when needed and silently say a prayer of gratitude that I have the amazing support system of family that I do.
I am grateful to own my own business and to have a creative business that is fun, restorative and keeps me focused and motivated yet never stressed. I am excited to be only $99 away from my monthly sales goal and to watch the business expand and grow!

And I say a big “thank you” to my regular readers who come by the blog, share in the creative spirit and hopefully are reminded, however gently, that it is ok to rest and take time for yourself. In fact, it is a necessity.

Until Next Time….

Michele aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Tea Party to Welcome Baby

tea3Today was a beautiful day.
It has been a rough week for me and I really needed the gentleness of today.
My mother, daughter and I went to a local tea house to celebrate our new baby due next month. When my daughter was coming, I was given a beautiful baby shower and it was such a nice way to welcome her into the family. However with this little guy I wanted something quiet, relaxing and gentle.

I decided a tea party would be perfect!

Having never been to this (or any other tea house) we really didn’t know what to expect and to be honest, that was part of the fun! We had delicious scones with clotted cream, salad, quiche and I tea4enjoyed a decaf marzipan tea (which I had to buy to enjoy again at home!)

Afterwards we came home, sat on the front porch while the little girl played, hubby did some yard work and mom and I chatted. 64 degrees, and gorgeous it was completely my kind of day! I am balanced, and feel like myself again.

I also promised my podcast listeners that I would share some pictures of our Easter chocolate making. For those who don’t know, my mother and I would make Easter chocolates when I was a kid and the molds have been passed down to me. It is a nice tradition to continue with my own kids. Even though my little girl was more interested in playing with her “dancing fairy” and eating the chocolate :)

Melts, bunny bags-ready to go!

Melts, bunny bags-ready to go!

Melted yumminess

Melted yumminess

Ready for the fridge!

Ready for the fridge!

YUM!

YUM!

Gifties!

Gifties!

I hope however you celebrate that you are having a beautiful weekend.
Until Next Time…

Michele aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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My First Altered Book

IMG_20130819_174222_976I had a creative week but feel like my creative wave is starting to slow.
I am becoming more introverted, more reclusive and feeling like I want to retreat within to a nice cozy warm cocoon.

And I am totally ok with this!

I love writing my blog posts, creating videos and sharing my love for all things creative.
And it seems to fit so nicely with my new found reclusive nature.
As I mentioned in a recent podcast I wanted to start sharing a bit more of the creative projects I am working on here. Last week I started work on some altered books and then found a really amazing tutorial on YouTube on using an old book cover to make a junk journal. It was such an easy project and I had a lot of fun doing it. As I went through, creating your pages, there is a bit of a “letting go” that happened that was extremely freeing.

I made a video to share my completed project (there is also a link to the tutorial I used). I haven’t decided what I am going to use the book for but I will share once I do.

I hope you enjoy it! And if you make your own I would love to see it!

Until Next Time…
Michele Fawcett aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Riding the Creative Wave

I love riding the creative wave.

If you are a regular reader, or podcast subscriber you know that I talk often about basking in the abundance of a creative heat wave.

I am in one now and just having so much fun!
I have been planning my business, focusing on what matters and the truth is that other “stuff” just seems to be melting away.
I love it.

One of the creative projects I am working on now is adding to my Etsy shop some cardmaking & journal making kits. I am still working on the details but planning on offering the kits as well as finished cards in the shop which is fun!

I am also really excited to announce that I am going to be running the Art Journaling Workshop: Connecting with Your Creative Self again! It will start on April 1st and run until April 30th. If you missed it last time around you will definitely want to sign up for this fun, easy and relaxed group. For more details you can read about it here.

So that’s me, riding the creative wave.
Hope you can join me!

Until Next Time…
Michele Fawcett, aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Goal Setting & Dreams Come True

cropped-a1m1.jpgI love when things work out.
It seems a lot of times I plan, I visualize and then..nada!
Yet somehow, this year things are different for me.
Maybe I am just different.
I have been so focused on the goals I have set down for myself and making the time to revisit and plan a bit more and you know what? It works!

Who knew?

I wish I could definitively tell you what the difference is.
Did I just put in enough inner work to clear my mind and clear my focus?
Is this just my year?
Maybe a little of each and a whole lot of other things I don’t understand or are even aware of.

What I do know is how great it feels!
I talked in today’s podcast how I had set a monthly sales goal for my new Stampin’ Up! business. Over the weekend I sat down and reviewed my goals and realized how close I was to the end of the month.
And how I still had $150 in sales to go.
So I sat and tried to think of ways to still hit my goal.
And I decided to share with my clients.
To be honest, and tell them about the goals I have set and how close I was to achieving it.
And you know what?
It worked!

I know it’s nothing new, this isn’t a radical concept.
However the reality is when what you truly love to do, is what you are actually doing.
Things align.

What do you love to do?
What are you passionate about?
Share in the comments below.
Let’s support each other!

Until next time…
Michele Fawcett, aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Smashbooking: What to Put in Yours

I currently own 3 Smashbooks. I must admit I have a bit of a stationary addiction and I do love these little books.

Smashbook1My first one I purchased started out as a book that I printed out all the Pinterest crafts I wanted to do. It worked out well for a while then I decided to change it so I pulled the pages.

Not really logical but I have this need for my journals to have a central theme.
Maybe it’s the writer in me.
Anyway the book them morphed into a Full Moon Journal/Dream Journal type thing but I haven’t done much with it lately.

I then purchased 2 more journals for no other reason than the fact that they were pretty and I had plans for them.
I don’t remember what they were.

What I do like about these is the fact that they pages easily come out through the 3 ring-binder and you can add pages to them which is really cool.

And they still sat empty save for 1 2-page spread I did back in September.

So I decided that I just need to get over myself, sit down and put a page together.
It didn’t have to be big, or have this tight, cohesive theme.
I decided on the them of “Me” which I think gives me a lot of play room!

And since I did spend time scouring the Internet looking for Smashbook inspiration I felt it might be helpful to others to share what I came up.
You can see my video below:

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Until Next Time…
Michele Fawcett, aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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You Can Create Anything!

It’s been a fun few weeks!
Regular listeners to my podcasts know that some of my latest creative endeavors, besides my Art Journaling Workshop, that I have been playing a lot with paper, stamping and card making. I have also been enjoying the fun of creating a new blog to share my adventure as a Stampin’ Up Independent Demonstrator.

Lots of fun!

I am starting to really connect the creative process to my day to day life and the connection has been extremely powerful. It’s what I studied as a Creatively Fit Coach with Whitney Freya and it really makes a difference in how we approach our lives.
When you create something, a painting, a song, a poem, anything, you are taking something that didn’t exist and giving it form.
I am not sure we recognize the power in that.

Something, that moments before you thought of it didn’t exist and more importantly wasn’t a possibility until YOU created it in your mind. From that thought you brought it into tangible form and suddenly, it exists.

Can you feel the power in that?
Can you see why when others tell you something can’t be done it just means it can’t be done by them?
Can you feel how if you channeled that creativity into say, your dream job, your relationships, your finances that there is nothing you cannot do?

Nothing.
Not a thing.

You can manifest change in your life simply by being the catalyst to create change.
Simple. Powerful. Strong.
Amazing!

Until Next Time….
Michele Fawcett, aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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Creating My Amazing 2014

Recently I was asked to create a follow-up video to my 2014 Planner video. The timing was perfect because I had been thinking of doing one and incorporating how I use Leonie Dawson’s “2014  Create Your Amazing Year” workbook so I finally took advantage of all the snow the East Coast has been getting and created my video.

YEA!

One of the things I realized last year was the power behind these books when you, well, use them! I know it sounds obvious but I always filled them out and kinda thought,
“Ok it’s in my head, I know what I want to make happen I am good!”

The truth is though it’s not enough.
Planning is not enough.
You need to make space for your dreams.
You need to make time for your dreams.

That’s how things happen.

If you ever wondered, “how does so-and-so get so much done?”
This is how!

So here is my follow-up video. A big thanks to Fran for asking for it. I hope you enjoy!

Until Next Time…
Michele aka The Dreaming Dilettante

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