Today was an interesting day for me, something that I have been asking for, for quite some time has actually manifested and now that it has I am sitting with how I truly feel about it.
You really can never prepare yourself for how you will react to situations. You think you know, you believe yourself to be prepared but when it happens it can easily send you into a tailspin if you let it. For me I was more interested in the behavior about myself I observed.
Today a business arrangement came to an end-I knew it was coming, I had hoped it would come and once it did I immediately began calling all the closest people to me letting them know. I think that was probably what caused my confusion.
I didn’t sit with it. I didn’t pause and process the events and how I felt about everything now that it was here. At the time I didn’t think I needed to-I knew how I would respond but by jumping in and sharing with everyone I let my own inner strength kinda stand in a corner going, “Ok this is what we planned….” and then get pushed aside by the outpouring of thoughts, fears and emotions of everyone I talked to. Even when they were being supportive.
It made me think of all those online polls-on Facebook, in magazines-asking for every one’s opinion from who wore this outfit better to which person is the better celebrity dancer. We are consumed by the opinions of the majority. It made me realize that in my own way, I was taking a poll with those closest to me to see if they were alright with the arrangement-and if they were then *phew* then I was right and this is a good thing.
Our lives are ours alone and regardless of the votes of the majority we need to be happy with our own choices and where our lives are leading. Regardless of whether you have the support of the masses or you are going it alone your life needs to be authentically and beautifully you! Here is to life’s next adventure for me-and for you.
I feel my fortune cookie today said it all!