I finally did the drawing for my February Giveaway and the winner is……..
Alison!!!! Congrats to you Alison you have won a FREE month of the Dilettante Deliveries!
Enjoy!!!
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I had a brilliant idea for a blog post yesterday.
It was going to be wonderful.
I never wrote it down.
It is lost somewhere in neurons of my brain.
I should learn.
It’s hard sometimes to write when inspiration hits. I find it’s rarely ever when I am sitting at the laptop or at the very least, sitting at all.
Unless of course I am sitting in my car driving or in the shower.
I have been really making a valiant effort to be better at recording my ideas as they occur. I have been using the record feature a lot on my phone but yesterday for some reason I just didn’t. I knew I wanted to, however, if I were to be totally honest I think the topic scared me just a bit. I know it had something to do with being honest with ourselves and I wonder if part of me really wasn’t ready to be?
I trust it will come back if/when it’s meant to and I promise to listen next time around.
I feel as if I need to take a deep breath. As if so many amazing things are swirling around my house and the moment I step outside they are going to all come rushing at me, excitedly gibbering away about how long they have waited for me and all the wonderful things we will do together. Almost like excited children they talk non-stop and while they are charming and sweet and make me smile there is a part of me that is whispering, “back away slowly inside the house.”
I feel drawn to the metaphor of a butterfly lately and how the catepillar has to coccoon itself in it’s safe little home as the major transformation occurs. When my daughter was born it was winter and I was blessed with 9 weeks of maternity leave. We were having an extremely cold, extremely snowy winter. I can still remember one day, sitting with a cup of coffee in the living room. The curtains were open, the snow was falling outside and my precious little baby girl was asleep in her swing.
I don’t think I have ever wanted to freeze a moment more in my life.
Since I made the move to working for myself/full-time mom I have been aware of the feeling of cocooning once again. I know that the past year and a half has been necessary, has been the first step in the next phase of forward movement. It’s hard, however, to step outside of the safe haven I have created. Knowing the amazing world that lies outside does little to make me want to leave this warm and cozy home and venture into the unknown.
Fear is a part, a big part. I can feel the shift occuring and on some level know the role I play and then my mind starts it’s whining and it’s hard to listen to anything else.
Much less the small, clear, knowing voice that whispers.
It’s time.
The sun is shining the day is new-it’s time to step outside.
Care to join me?
P.S. I have used this video on my blog in the past-it always makes me happy and giggling.
I will warn-you probably will have it stuck in your head all day 🙂
Until Next Time…..
Michele aka The Dreaming Dilettante
Yay, I won something!
On my psychotherapy course at the weekend we were covering adolescence and the idea of the cocoon, so a v apt post.